Tuesday, November 30, 2004
What do you do when you suddenly realise that you have absolutely no one to turn to when times are bad? The options you have are just not good enough because they don't understand. And you don't want to burden them with understanding because it takes too much. Sometimes you really feel as though you're the last person on earth. Life is so weird and so fickle. One day you're feeling estatic and so loved and the next you feel unwanted, unloved and worthless. Why are emotions so hard to handle?Sometimes I do wish I can't feel. No emotions no nothing. Just me a lifeless body. But then I might as well be dead right? But I want to live. Yet I'm tired. I'm very tired.
I thought the holidays would be fun. Loads of bumming around and relaxing. It seems that I always dream the impossible. Today I was in a stranger in my own home. Sometimes I really cease to understand the meaning of life. Why all the complications? I really don't want to understand anymore. I'm so tired. I just want to live life peacefully you know. Is that too much to ask? Must everyday be a challenge? I've been through enough already. It has made me a better person and I'm grateful but can it all stop now? For awhile? Just a little while.
Life is a disappointment now. I guess I must learn not to expect too much. I need time.
Just read your comment. You might be right about what's in my mind now but you will neva understand how I feel until you are in my shoe. And I won't be able to understand exactly whats going on in ur mind as well. Just wanna let you know, so what if we don't understand your probs, so what if it takes too much, both my ears are all ready for you.
everythin is actually very simple and clear, it's just because our minds are playing tricks. Don't let all da weird weird feelins' get to you. Aiks...i dont know what am i trying to say here oso...hope it helps la...
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