....It's The Lil' Things That Make Life Sweet....

Friday, January 28, 2005

Weird feelings have been invading my life recently. Been going on for the past few weeks but they seem more significant these few days. Kinda hard to ignore. Hmm..so what am I gonna do about them?

I'm in a dilemma. Should I heed those feelings? Do they mean anything? What should I do? Should I act on it? I usually follow my heart but this time it's pretty hard to, without questioning it first. Oh boy...this is soooooo different.

Let's analyse shall we? First it goes against everything I've ever believed in. Secondly, there's a huge huge risk of failure and regret. Then it challenges my ego and pride. Oh one more, it's something I never even thought of thinking, let alone doing. Hmm...looks like I got it all figured out yeah. Nah...if only my heart can understand what a big step this is. It keeps on nagging and nagging and nagging! Why why why?! Silly heart. Silly head. Silly me.

But it's a nice feeling though. Troublesome one but a very nice feeling. Feels like a change. A pleasant change and it's so tempting. Aiyoh!! How now?? *breaks into a song* Feelingsss...nothing more than feelingssss.....

Lalalalalalalala!!! Well at least it's not making me moping about in depression. Makes me think alot but at least it's pleasant thinking. Ahahahahhahahah! Oh boy! I'm going nuts!

On a completely different subject, I've been studying really hard nowadays! See I insaf ady! I guess this is the price to pay when you slack THAT much. At least this time I'm willing to study. I made notes too! Pretty ones. I'm so proud of myself. Hee! Gonna study everyday now. EVERYDAY! All geared up to make my results look decent and pretty!

I feel that I'm a better person these days. I'm finally thinking like an adult. I'm more considerate and no more childish wants. I'm thinking about my family, my friends, myself and basically everyone around me everytime I do something. I hope this stays on. I'm spending less, I want less, and less makes me happy. I'm no longer a brat. Okay fine...I'm a milder brat now. :)

Oyeah 'I'm your angel' by Celine Dion and R. Kelly is a really really nice song.

Oyeah one more thing. Suddenly feeling a lil guilty. Don't know why. Here's a public apology. I'd like to apologise to Kenny Chan Teik Keen for always bullying him, teasing him, snapping at him and throwing sarcasm at him when he doesn't deserve it at times.

Here's a public announcement.
-Lim Sing Yieng laughs for no apparent reason and her laughs are ugly.
-Pui Yee's room is now in a very ugly shade of Blue, Lime Green and PINK! Ewwww!!! My condolence dear.
-Everybody is a pervert. Yes, YOU are a pervert. Denying that you're a pervert makes you more of a pervert! Hah!!!! YOU PERVY!!!!

Okay. I need to ciao!

melia signed out with love @ 10:16 PM (1) earthling(s) farted

Comments:

OOIIIII, what I laugh for no apparent reason!!! That was a good joke kays!!! Eating stingray in the rain, aint that funny? Lolxxx....and remember our so-called dream when we grow older? Lolx...and one more thing, my laugh is ugly sometimes yeah I admit but definitely not as ugly as URS!!!

U know wat, I damn bat now, what is the weird but nice feelins u were talkin bout?? Wanna know wanna know...ehehehehe...

SY-spazzy

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..What About Amelia?..

Because this blog needs an introduction
Here goes!

I'm 40% mature, 30% child-like
10% fashionista, 8% dork
6% klutzy, 3% dreamer
2% blur, 1% hero x)

I also want to marry John Mayer
And oh, I want a pet unicorn too x)

More self-absorbed information here!!

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