....It's The Lil' Things That Make Life Sweet....

Monday, September 12, 2005

Geezerss...suddenly I'm feeling a lil weird. A feeling that hasn't been around for quite sometime. I'm feeling sad. Phan Shean left for UK yesterday night. This is the first friend I ever had that left for somewhere so far away. His leaving here made me realise how many more friends of mine that are leaving or will be leaving. Sing Yieng, Xin Yi, Siew Joo, Shan, and so many more. It's like you want to feel happy for each and everyone of them. For moving on to greater heights, for being able to pursue their dreams. But then one small part of you just don't want them to leave. I know I might be leaving here one day too and I think about the people that I might be leaving. All this leaving business is messy.

Distance does affect relationships. Like it or not, it is a fact. How are you gonna possibly be close to a person if you don't have a clue what's going on in their life? And how are you gonna relate to their stories if you're not there in person to witness it? I hope that day will never happen to me. I mean I didn't forge years of friendship just to see it smashed into smitherins. It'll definitely hurt. I don't want to look back into yearbooks and recognise a certain face and think to myself ' I once knew her so well' or 'We were once best friends'. It may not hurt so much after a couple of years or maybe it may not even hurt at all after all that distance. We'll each have our own lives and our own circle of friends. What is there to hurt. But I know better. The hurt is subtle. It's so gradual that you wouldn't even notice. And that is what's so scary.

Sigh...but people have to grow up don't they? People have to move on.

And in less than one month's time, I'm gonna start a new life. It scares me actually. I never liked changes. I never liked leaving my comfort zone. This time I'll be driving to Uni alone and like it or not, if there's a massive jam, I'll have to endure it on my own just like the rest of them. I'm truly on my own now. And as exciting as the prospect of seeing what I can make of myself on my own there's always that fear of taking that first step.

Awww...shucks...why must we all grow up so darn fast. :)

melia signed out with love @ 1:30 AM (2) earthling(s) farted

Comments:

i so know how you feel! haih.

i made a list of people leaving malaysia and me! haha..

and my list of "still-in-malaysia-friends" is very short only...:(

hehe. anyways, i'll be in HELP!:)
its scary, but the people there are not all that bad!:)

# posted by

Unknown : 2:23 PM

Sabar! Ill be here virtually!

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meatbag : 12:20 AM

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6% klutzy, 3% dreamer
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