....It's The Lil' Things That Make Life Sweet....

Saturday, July 01, 2006

I would think that at the ripe old age of 20 I'd have a very mature mind. It's something I'm proud of. Something I know deep down in my heart, something I truly believe in. Actually not just from the age of 20, ever since I started high school, ever since I had the chance to redeem myself as an equal to all, I've always thought that I'm way more mature than the people around me. Of course if you don't really know me well you would think that I'm one really childish person. Well this is where I'll correct you. I'm childlike. But it doesn't mean that I'm not mature in thought. So yes. I've always believe I was that person. I'm rational, I'm tactful and I think before I speak taking into consideration of the feelings of others. I've always thought it was the Picsean side of me y'know.

But lately, I feel my thoughts becoming more uncontrolled and unreasonable. I'm no longer rational and I'm so easily driven by my emotions. A lil bit can drive my mood downhill. Sometimes I even scare myself with my thoughts (right after I gain back my rationalism, if there is such a word).

The question I'm asking myself almost everyday now is why? What happened? I thought people become wiser and somewhat calmer and less rash when they get older. And now I truly believe that the 16 year old me would have frowned at the 20 year old me and offered the 20 year old me a long long lecture about life, sacrifices, faith and compromise.

I guess I do know why. There are factors in my life right now that I didn't have then. Well I do applaud 16 year old me for being wise enough to steer away from such trouble. If only 20 year old me didn't fall into that trap. Sighh...

I'm an emotional roller coaster. Who needs Genting? Hmph.

Why lar is this happening to me? I'm seriously too old for this man.

Freaking hell I'm 21 next year.

Aiyohhh...how now?

melia signed out with love @ 3:58 AM (0) earthling(s) farted

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..What About Amelia?..

Because this blog needs an introduction
Here goes!

I'm 40% mature, 30% child-like
10% fashionista, 8% dork
6% klutzy, 3% dreamer
2% blur, 1% hero x)

I also want to marry John Mayer
And oh, I want a pet unicorn too x)

More self-absorbed information here!!

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