....It's The Lil' Things That Make Life Sweet....

Monday, September 22, 2008

I've been having nightmares.

Infact I just woke up from one. >__<

They range from the "horror movie-esque" killer garden gnomes and vicious little creatures to more real and painful situations that jolt me up in the middle of the night with tears in my eyes.

Besides interrupting my much needed sleep, these nightmares have been making me feel reserved, scared, paranoid and vunerable. I feel like regressing from a lot of things and just stay at home in my little room. Instead of grasping for things out of my reach, I feel like just giving up and sink into wherever darkness may lead.

I hate these dreams and they ideas they give me. They are so real and they're probably making me more insecure than I should be. I hate feeling insecure. It turns me into a person I don't want to be. My confidence plummets. I feel pathetic, weak and lousy.

The funny thing is, I don't usually have dreams when I sleep. Now they come in droves, every night, all bad and vile. And you can't cover your eyes when you dream. Everything is right in your face.

I just ate a cupcake to calm myself down and to cheer myself up. Perhaps something sweet will give me better dreams. Or did I get it wrong? Does sugar give you nightmares?

I need a hug. :(

melia signed out with love @ 4:21 AM (0) earthling(s) farted

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..What About Amelia?..

Because this blog needs an introduction
Here goes!

I'm 40% mature, 30% child-like
10% fashionista, 8% dork
6% klutzy, 3% dreamer
2% blur, 1% hero x)

I also want to marry John Mayer
And oh, I want a pet unicorn too x)

More self-absorbed information here!!

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