....It's The Lil' Things That Make Life Sweet....

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Lost and found.

Finally got the time to sit down and record what's been happening in my life. And I need to record this, because I want to remember how in a span of 2 weeks I went from being lost and confused to being saved and certain.

In my entire 21 years of living, I've never felt pain as I did some 2 weeks ago. The pain was real and it hurt every single part of me. The realisation that I'm about to lose something or that I already had left me empty and hollow. And it is through that when I realised that sometimes in life, you have to lose yourself in order to find that one part that you're looking for. Because when you finally reached the end, the point of no return, it is then when everything becomes crystal clear. Because in that moment of hopelessness, nothing else matters except for one. And that is when you know your answer.

I went into a transition period, where I was in between two realities or two fantasies. I had help, and I thank God for blessing me with him. Because in whatever form he chooses to appear in, he always always calms me. And I thank You for that. For loving me so unconditionally. For giving me time to clear my head. For caring about me and my welfare. For playing that dual role so well. Thank you and remember that I will always love you.

Love comes in many forms, and I realised that you can't really catergorise it into its levels because we don't exactly know for sure. But does it matter? Sometimes, we should let things be what it is without thinking too much of it. If it's present, so let it be. Be grateful to feel it.

And now that everything is sorted out, I feel grateful. If I had any doubts before, it's all gone now. Because I can say that I'm truly truly happy now. Letting go isn't that hard. Not when you get something greater in return. And I'm lucky to have that. At first I thought I needed some convincing, that this will indeed be better for both of us. But there's no need for that. Everything fell into place. Everything is beautiful.

Though in the past weeks, I've shed tonnes of tears and felt the most intense pain ever, this is one of the most beautiful experience I've ever had. I never thought that I'd be one to have this. And to know that I'm one of the few lucky ones, I will be eternally grateful.

"We haven't lost each other, infact we will always be part of each other's lives."

Indeed.

On to another chapter in life. With you still by my side.

melia signed out with love @ 12:29 AM (1) earthling(s) farted

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..What About Amelia?..

Because this blog needs an introduction
Here goes!

I'm 40% mature, 30% child-like
10% fashionista, 8% dork
6% klutzy, 3% dreamer
2% blur, 1% hero x)

I also want to marry John Mayer
And oh, I want a pet unicorn too x)

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